So I'm sitting idle here waiting to finish off all of my appointments for the month - I'll update more on those in the coming weeks, but in the meantime I thought I would just post about, well, nothing.
OK well a post has to be about something, but really it'll just be me rambling on about...babies. That's right. I'm going to actually talk about babies.
Do you ever find yourself daydreaming about what it would be like to be on mat leave? To be out and about, pushing that nice stroller you and hubby picked out, dog trotting along beside you, and babe happily cooing in the seat enjoying the nice sunny weather? Hmph. I have to admit, as our IVF date inches closer, I start wondering more and more what it will be like to be able to plan out a nursery. To buy clothes and furniture. To have a belly. To give birth. Even when I was pregnant with our little angel I didn't allow myself to think these things; it took us so long to get pregnant that I was really quite skeptical that it would last (and it turned out for good reason).But now... now that we know that there's a real possibility that this IVF will work, I'm starting to allow myself to daydream a little bit. To start to think about what I would do with the nursery. I was actually just looking in the Sears catalogue today at the baby strollers and car seats, and thought to myself - OMG, I could actually be in the market for one of these in the next few months.
Unbelievable.
I just wonder what it will be like and how I will feel when I actually get pregnant. I've been trying for SO long, and have gotten so used to that sense of failure - what will it be like? Will I be apprehensive? For how long? Will I be happy? indifferent? in shock?
I've been an infertile for so long, I think the transition to the fertile side of the field might be a tough one.
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