Well in the morning it'll be official. I'm cancelled for this cycle, I just know it. And if they don't pull the plug, I'm going to.
I'm a little upset that they've let this drag out so long, and have allowed me to drop so much money in medications when I think they've known for days that things aren't looking as they should. I've been over-suppressed, and now I'm taking enough bloody drugs to stimulate a friggin' horse. This is ridiculous. I've already spent $4300 in monitoring and drugs. Cut ties, and cut ties now.
My e2 has been rising, but far too slowly, and I worry now about egg quality given my numbers are so low, especially with the insane doses of medication I'm on. T0 top it all off, I have only 5, maybe 6, worthwhile follicles growing. Everything else is 10mm or under - growing, but very slowly. I have lots in there, they're just being stubborn.
So. Tomorrow I'm going to ask that this cycle be cancelled and that we start fresh in a few months with a new one. Also that I be given the hCG trigger so that I can get this show on the road a little sooner than later.
We've waited so long for this to happen; it's heartbreaking to have to stop now. But - what's another 2 months on top of the 39 we've already waited? Really? Nothing.
Like my dad always says: "If you're going to do it, do it right."
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